Never give up being yourself

A small boy who has Tourette Syndrome tried hard to get over all the tough barriers during life time and finally proved himself in the end. This is the very first thought I came up with about the movie since it started. While it is actually just the way the plot’s going on, I still find myself full of tears while watching it. How come could a cliché suddenly get out of the boring routine circle? Well, the only reason can just be the information it gives to me.

‘Never let anything stops you from chasing your dream!’ Brad gets this value from his ‘constant companion’ which is actually a disease, an incurable disease. How could that be possible? I could never imagine anyone in this world were able to be optimistic like that, making the horror as a friend! If it came to me, I could probably try every means to avoid the public, or even worse but very likely, I might choose to commit suicide. Living with the laugh and denial from others makes life suffer.

Nevertheless, a six-year-old boy made it, lead a somehow more successful future then us ‘normal people’.

I don’t have that incurable disease, why shouldn’t I make my life better?

Like anyone else, I want to pursue real things, I want others’ admit. ‘There is no shortcut to success; the only way is hard working.’ But things just don’t turn out in the way I want. I tried, in many ways. However, during my life till now, I never give up finding ‘the one’, the real one friend, the true friend, the BBF belongs to me.

When I was still small in my childhood, I had a lot of friends. We studied together, ate together, played together, had fun together…… I was having a good time enjoy that pure life, pure relationship. At that time, a girl whom I thought we could be together forever was close with me. We shared our secrets, we laughed at each others’ awkward times, we teased each others…… We quarreled, but we would be back as usual soon; We teared, as we were forced apart after birthday party, even though we would meet just the next day. Oh, I really miss that feeling, with some funny innocence.

But, as time going on, things changes, people change.

I had a crush on a boy in class, maybe just a little admires. One time I told her about my thought, and I made her keep my secret. I believed her. I never hate anyone, I never really don’t believe anyone. I choose to believe goodness makes people, no one is born a bad person, and I still keep this faith now. Meanwhile, at the same time, I hate being betrayed. Unfortunately, she pushed my limit, even worse, broke my world.

She told. I chose not to believe this, but it’s the fact. What’s more, she kind of making the announcement that she was going to be with that boy soon. That was not a coincidence. I came up with the time before, we seemed alike all the time, liked the same things, wore in similar style, and chose the same activities…… I sometimes wondered whether we were that alike. When it came to study and marks, if I was better, she always seemed unhappy. I told her that she was better then me, just this

time she was a little careless. But she never satisfied. When she turned out better then me, she never came to me, instead, she laughed with others who was around her admiring her intelligence. She never shared her happiness with me, nor came or comforted me.

When all those memories flooded to me, I felt so betrayed. I never ever doubt her being with me. But did she treat me the same? I hate being used as a tool, never! But for a faked friendship which I thought was ever-lasting true, I even chose to change myself for her happiness, to make her felt more proud about having me as a BBF. Well, now it all been torn.

All were just a dream. A dream I made up myself.

For getting a real friendship, I never be totally myself, I tried to be in the way they like, they want. But however hard I made my efforts, they just treat me as a friend temporarily when they need, when they are alone.

Lonely is my ‘constant companion’. I always lost myself with his company. I do nothing.

But isn’t Brad lonely? He is even worse then my situation!

However, he knows who he is, he knows what he wants, and he never denies himself, and he never let himself down by himself!

He is being his real self.

He didn’t compromise when the interviewer wanted him to be not-himself. He let the girl he likes knew his real side. He never let himself down by himself.

He is always happy whenever, wherever, however, with whomever, being himself.

Being yourself, you have to accept yourself as being the way you are. If you never admit yourself, who else would? How can you let others accept you?

Close your eyes, peace your inner world. Have a look at your own mind.

You know what you want, you just need to be yourself, that is all for you keeping ahead steadily, to the target forward!